The last 30 days, ending yesterday, was quite the experiment.
It started on August 12th. On day one, I quit drinking. And on day two, I added a new habit (in particular, I would put on my running shoes and run across the street with them on).
By day thirty, I was very busy (and tired).
I initially hoped to keep every single goal, all 465 of them (1 + 2 + 3 + … + 30).
I ran into technical failures at first, when I quit smoking, my vape gear needed replacement parts and such, so there were a few false starts and emergency packs of cowboy-killers interspersed. And my scale broke (I put the batteries in backwards and the display fritzed out even even after batteries were corrected.).
I tried my best.
I ended up spending a lot of time working on MindSay, all behind the scenes. Ended up breaking things and not noticing in the process. It happens. It will get worse before it gets better.
In the end, I failed. A lot. But I also succeeded a lot. A lot a lot.
Thirty one days ago I was a hot mess.
By yesterday, I was more than half a new person.
- I went from “no running at all” – really the last time I ran was in 2015, and even that was pathetic – to running 5Ks – multiple days in a row – with my dog – with 7.5lbs of extra weight strapped on my back.
- Haven’t had a drink since
- Wake up 8:30am, cook breakfast by 9:30am
You know what, fuck it, let me just paste from my spreadsheet:
Fri Aug 12 207.8 Quit drinking Sat Aug 13 205.8 Put on running shoes and cross the street Sun Aug 14 206.4 Wake up by 8:30AM Mon Aug 15 205.6 All bills paid, mail, IRS, and paperwork-zero Tue Aug 16 206.8 Cook full breakfast by 9:30AM Wed Aug 17 208.2 Quit ciggarettes, started vaping Thu Aug 18 208.6 Record video or edit video Fri Aug 19 209.2 No marijuana before afternoon run Sat Aug 20 209.2 Keep car trash free Sun Aug 21 208.2 Plan next day (and next week on Sundays) Mon Aug 22 207.4 Clean desk & kicthen before going to bed Tue Aug 23 206.6 Meditate daily Wed Aug 24 204.4 Add one track to my YouTube Happy Music playplist Thu Aug 25 204.4 Healthy snacks only (except popcorn once in a while) Fri Aug 26 204.6 Laugh really good Sat Aug 27 204.0 Be mindful of a challenging moment Sun Aug 28 207.4 Take a break on Sundays Mon Aug 29 205.0 Ask a friend how they are doing (anything but e-mail) Tue Aug 30 205.2 Make the bed by noon Wed Aug 31 202.0 Extra 7.5lbs extra weight on longest trip Thu Sep 01 201.8 Brush teeth 3x day Fri Sep 02 202.6 Update spreadsheet first thing in the morning Sat Sep 03 201.8 No more than one basket from laundry zero Sun Sep 04 200.8 Sunday break day Mon Sep 05 199.2 No weed until 4:20pm Tue Sep 06 202.2 Change my home until I'm happy with it without spending money
Things fell off the rails on the 7th with my scale breaking, and the above doesn’t contain my notes about what worked and what didn’t, so please don’t think I accomplished everything stated above. I am only human.
But the next 30 days, I know what I am doing.
I am repeating the same tasks. I am doubling down and trying to keep the same habits, with a focus on honesty, practicality, and sustainability.
And, for the love of god, I need to quit weed for a while. Just to declare victory and move on. I can bring MJ back again once I’ve earned it.